For all of those...12 people following...LOL...
I have stopped blogging on Marethouse Mama for a while now. I was having writer's block big time, when trying to think of things to blog about.
It is so crazy to think this time last year, I was a week away from winning the Marethouse Fitness Challenge. I have been able to keep 30 pounds off of the 42 that I lost year, and that is something that I have never done....kept weight off.
I owe Marethouse Fitness for teaching me and encouraging me and helping me learn that exercise is the ONLY way to stay healthy and lose weight. I thank God everyday that I was chosen for such an amazing journey.
However, I have decided to start blogging on my family blog for now...
it was time for a change and I have enjoyed writing about the ins and outs of the Farrell Family. I am definitely not finished with my weight loss journey, in fact I know it will be a life long task ahead...but I am ready for it thanks to Marethouse. I shudder to think of where my life would be this year, had I not been chosen.
Thank you Marethouse and thank you again to ALL of my awesome supporters!
If you have interest in following the Farrell Family...www.collegestationfarrells.blogspot.com
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Sick of being SICK!
I didn't make it on Monday to train with Paul. I was going to try my hardest to power through...but on my way home from work, I was feeling so bad and started to run fever...I figured it was best to cancel. Yesterday, I felt worse. Still coughing, fever, sore throat. It seems to be going around.
BUT...today I woke up feeling much better. I plan to meet Paul tonight at Aggieland and get back in gear! I am finally not sore any more, but I am sure Paul can change that, he is so good at that.
The fitness challenge contestants seem to be doing great! I have kept up with their blogs and enjoy reading about their journey.
BUT...today I woke up feeling much better. I plan to meet Paul tonight at Aggieland and get back in gear! I am finally not sore any more, but I am sure Paul can change that, he is so good at that.
The fitness challenge contestants seem to be doing great! I have kept up with their blogs and enjoy reading about their journey.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Ready to Run
I am ashamed to admit how sore I was from last week! But I am feeling much better today in that department...now I am just sick :(
I think I am battling a sinus infection, and I think the germ carrier was my son! I took him to the doctor on Friday, he was incredibly congested and had an ugly ear infection. He seems to be feeling MUCH better, and now I am not feeling so hot.
It is not going to hold me down though! I am headed to the gym after work to meet Paul for week 2. Last week, despite the soreness, it was not bad. I didn't throw up, and can definitely tell that my strength has improved throughout the past year.
...the is random, but I have been thinking about it a lot...I am not nor have I ever been a runner. But I wish I was. I am making a new goal for myself. I want to be able to run. My cardio has always consisted of high intensity elliptical training, stairs, short sprints, etc...I have always had it in my head that I "can't" run. Well...maybe I just haven't tried. After talking with my cousin this weekend, she suggested that I start on the treadmill running for a minute or two...then walking...then running...
I think I am going to try it! Why not, right?! We will see how it goes!!
I think I am battling a sinus infection, and I think the germ carrier was my son! I took him to the doctor on Friday, he was incredibly congested and had an ugly ear infection. He seems to be feeling MUCH better, and now I am not feeling so hot.
It is not going to hold me down though! I am headed to the gym after work to meet Paul for week 2. Last week, despite the soreness, it was not bad. I didn't throw up, and can definitely tell that my strength has improved throughout the past year.
...the is random, but I have been thinking about it a lot...I am not nor have I ever been a runner. But I wish I was. I am making a new goal for myself. I want to be able to run. My cardio has always consisted of high intensity elliptical training, stairs, short sprints, etc...I have always had it in my head that I "can't" run. Well...maybe I just haven't tried. After talking with my cousin this weekend, she suggested that I start on the treadmill running for a minute or two...then walking...then running...
I think I am going to try it! Why not, right?! We will see how it goes!!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Seriously SORE
Oh man, I woke up this morning and could barely crawl out of bed!!! I am in some serious pain people! I knew I was going to be sore again, but I forgot exactly how bad it was going to be. Holy Moly.
I made it to the gym last night, finally...after 45 minutes of convincing Charlie....like I said he is a little scared of the gym for some reason. He hates being dropped off at the daycare. He is the same way at church too. He freaks out when we drop him off. I don't understand it because he does great at school everyday. The boy is like his mom and doesn't like change! After I bribed him, and pleaded, he FINALLY agreed to get in the car! When we got to the gym, I could tell he was nervous. He kept a tight grip on my leg as we walked in and then the lip started to drop! I walked in and tried to show him all of the sweet people, and fun toys, etc...but he wasn't having it! Thank goodness Jill (the manager at Aggieland) swooped him up and I snuck away. As I made my way upstairs it sounded like the screaming stopped. Good grief! After about 5 minutes I saw Jill walk out of the daycare and gave me the thumbs up and said he was happy. Wheeeew. He is such a mess.
I got in my good cardio workout on the elliptical, and hurried to save the sweet girls in the daycare. When I went to pick him up he was having fun! They have an ADORABLE "little" gym set up in the daycare, along with a lot of other fun toys. They have kiddie size bicycle, treadmill, weights, etc...It is so cute! Charlie said "Look Mommy, I am working out like you!" It seriously cracked me up.
We saw Paul on the way out and Charlie jumped in his arms and told him how he "worked out", he even showed him his muscles. That kid is so funny! But hopefully now he will like coming to the gym, and not cause a scene next time. I am not going to hold my breath!
I meet Paul this evening for my upper body workout. Great.
I made it to the gym last night, finally...after 45 minutes of convincing Charlie....like I said he is a little scared of the gym for some reason. He hates being dropped off at the daycare. He is the same way at church too. He freaks out when we drop him off. I don't understand it because he does great at school everyday. The boy is like his mom and doesn't like change! After I bribed him, and pleaded, he FINALLY agreed to get in the car! When we got to the gym, I could tell he was nervous. He kept a tight grip on my leg as we walked in and then the lip started to drop! I walked in and tried to show him all of the sweet people, and fun toys, etc...but he wasn't having it! Thank goodness Jill (the manager at Aggieland) swooped him up and I snuck away. As I made my way upstairs it sounded like the screaming stopped. Good grief! After about 5 minutes I saw Jill walk out of the daycare and gave me the thumbs up and said he was happy. Wheeeew. He is such a mess.
I got in my good cardio workout on the elliptical, and hurried to save the sweet girls in the daycare. When I went to pick him up he was having fun! They have an ADORABLE "little" gym set up in the daycare, along with a lot of other fun toys. They have kiddie size bicycle, treadmill, weights, etc...It is so cute! Charlie said "Look Mommy, I am working out like you!" It seriously cracked me up.
We saw Paul on the way out and Charlie jumped in his arms and told him how he "worked out", he even showed him his muscles. That kid is so funny! But hopefully now he will like coming to the gym, and not cause a scene next time. I am not going to hold my breath!
I meet Paul this evening for my upper body workout. Great.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
One day at a time
Last night I started training again with Paul. I was nervous, but all in all it wasn't that bad! This week we are starting back with only 30 minute sessions and then next week I will move to one hour sessions again. We focused on lower body and started off the fun with leg press. FYI- I still don't enjoy it! We then moved on and I got reacquainted with the stairs. I remember my first experience a year ago with the stairs...not pretty. I could not run up the stairs, it took everything I had to walk up and down them as I grasped the rail because I was not only out of shape but had zero balance in my overweight body. While I still don't look incredibly graceful I am running up and down the stairs and not touching the rails. Don't get me wrong...still huffing and puffing when I finish! We continued on with wall squats and for the grand finale we went to the middle of the gym where I completed 3 sets of 24 lunges....and I didn't collapse! And my 30 minutes was complete!
My goal is to be in the gym everyday the contestants are. In order to pull this off I am going to have to take Charlie back to the gym. Let's just our last experience at the gym was less than enjoyable. He pooped on Dave, then cried the entire time I worked out...I am hoping that time has given him more courage. If not, I am in trouble!
My goal is to be in the gym everyday the contestants are. In order to pull this off I am going to have to take Charlie back to the gym. Let's just our last experience at the gym was less than enjoyable. He pooped on Dave, then cried the entire time I worked out...I am hoping that time has given him more courage. If not, I am in trouble!
Monday, February 8, 2010
Day 1 for the New Contestants!
I couldn't help but think about the new contestants this weekend. They officially start their 12 weeks of training today! I think I am nervous for them! I just remember so vividly this day last year for me...
I was so nervous, and anxious I thought I was going to be sick! Haha! I had never really worked out before. I was scared of the gym, scared of personal trainers, nervous I would make a fool out of myself, nervous I would let my friends and family down, just all in all...very anxious about the challenge that was in front of me!!!
Wow was it all worth it. I am starting my training again with Paul this evening as well. I am determined to get down to my goal weight.Something I have wanted to do for about 5 years. I lost 4 pounds last week!
Today, this year, I am feeling confident, I am feeling motivated, and I am excited for my challenge ahead. Ok...I am still a little nervous about the wrath of Paul...but at least I know I will survive!!!
I wanted to reflect on this day last year just to explain how far I have come:
Last year on Feb. 9th 2009 I walked into Aggieland Fitness, weighing 220 pounds, depressed, ashamed, scared to death, for my first workout in the Marethouse Fitness Challenge. Paul was very nice (this was before he got comfortable enough to tell me I ran like a duck), he took my measurements, blood pressure, heart rate, etc...and then we headed out to the gym.
(this is from my blog on the first day of my fitness challenge last year:
Paul was very friendly, and kind, he didn't make me feel uncomfortable at all He explained we were going to warm-up on the treadmill and then we would be working on my legs today. Little did Paul know he had A LOT of work to do!!! I was already winded after my short warm up but trying to hide it from my new fit friend...he lead me over to the leg extensions. I did several sets with ease (or so Paul thought... :) ) he seemed impressed and that made me happy. He was very motivating and positive. On to our next exercise....on a roll, I felt confidence seeping through my veins. He lead me to the middle of the gym (surrounded by what felt like millions of people staring at me!) and he told me that we were going to attempt lunges, 12 down and 12 back. He demonstrated them for me and feeling like a fitness queen already with my new found confidence, I smiled and began lunging.....8 down...really hurting, but all the while smiling....Paul said lets turn around and do 8 back (I guess my smile wasn't fooling him, he could see me sweating and struggling!) I began my journey back, after my 2nd lunge I collapsed! That's right- fell to the floor, legs did not work, in front of the whole gym. I quickly tried to jump up, for one, because I was so embarrassed and for two, because out of the corner of my eye I could see the head trainer running towards me in a panic. Paul grabbed my arms to help me up.....BAM, collapsed again! I couldn't stand, I couldn't get my legs to work! I was mortified....all the while still smiling! I finally was able to get on my feet. Poor, sweet Paul was pale and assured me that I was still doing well. We continued to attempt a few more exercises and at the end of my first hour, I realized this was not going to be easy. In fact, it might be the hardest thing I have ever had to do.
Last year I collapsed on my 8th lunge...I was so out of shape and unhealthy I was exhausted after the warm up. I still have a long way to go, but it is so nice to reflect on how far I have come. Don't get me wrong, tomorrow I will probably be crying because of how much I hurt...but at least I know that I will not collapse...and I will survive...eventually!
Good Luck to all of the new 6 today! I am pulling for you, supporting you, and so proud that you are taking this first step to change your life!
I was so nervous, and anxious I thought I was going to be sick! Haha! I had never really worked out before. I was scared of the gym, scared of personal trainers, nervous I would make a fool out of myself, nervous I would let my friends and family down, just all in all...very anxious about the challenge that was in front of me!!!
Wow was it all worth it. I am starting my training again with Paul this evening as well. I am determined to get down to my goal weight.Something I have wanted to do for about 5 years. I lost 4 pounds last week!
Today, this year, I am feeling confident, I am feeling motivated, and I am excited for my challenge ahead. Ok...I am still a little nervous about the wrath of Paul...but at least I know I will survive!!!
I wanted to reflect on this day last year just to explain how far I have come:
Last year on Feb. 9th 2009 I walked into Aggieland Fitness, weighing 220 pounds, depressed, ashamed, scared to death, for my first workout in the Marethouse Fitness Challenge. Paul was very nice (this was before he got comfortable enough to tell me I ran like a duck), he took my measurements, blood pressure, heart rate, etc...and then we headed out to the gym.
(this is from my blog on the first day of my fitness challenge last year:
Paul was very friendly, and kind, he didn't make me feel uncomfortable at all He explained we were going to warm-up on the treadmill and then we would be working on my legs today. Little did Paul know he had A LOT of work to do!!! I was already winded after my short warm up but trying to hide it from my new fit friend...he lead me over to the leg extensions. I did several sets with ease (or so Paul thought... :) ) he seemed impressed and that made me happy. He was very motivating and positive. On to our next exercise....on a roll, I felt confidence seeping through my veins. He lead me to the middle of the gym (surrounded by what felt like millions of people staring at me!) and he told me that we were going to attempt lunges, 12 down and 12 back. He demonstrated them for me and feeling like a fitness queen already with my new found confidence, I smiled and began lunging.....8 down...really hurting, but all the while smiling....Paul said lets turn around and do 8 back (I guess my smile wasn't fooling him, he could see me sweating and struggling!) I began my journey back, after my 2nd lunge I collapsed! That's right- fell to the floor, legs did not work, in front of the whole gym. I quickly tried to jump up, for one, because I was so embarrassed and for two, because out of the corner of my eye I could see the head trainer running towards me in a panic. Paul grabbed my arms to help me up.....BAM, collapsed again! I couldn't stand, I couldn't get my legs to work! I was mortified....all the while still smiling! I finally was able to get on my feet. Poor, sweet Paul was pale and assured me that I was still doing well. We continued to attempt a few more exercises and at the end of my first hour, I realized this was not going to be easy. In fact, it might be the hardest thing I have ever had to do.
Last year I collapsed on my 8th lunge...I was so out of shape and unhealthy I was exhausted after the warm up. I still have a long way to go, but it is so nice to reflect on how far I have come. Don't get me wrong, tomorrow I will probably be crying because of how much I hurt...but at least I know that I will not collapse...and I will survive...eventually!
Good Luck to all of the new 6 today! I am pulling for you, supporting you, and so proud that you are taking this first step to change your life!
Friday, February 5, 2010
Off to a great start (again)!
I have accomplished my goals this week. I have drank all of my water, exercised everyday, and stayed under 2000 calories everyday....and I must say it feels so good to be back in a healthy routine. And it feels good to be proud of my self again.
I have done strictly cardio everyday this week, each day I have increased my time and intensity. I am pretty sore, but nothing compared to how I will feel next week when Paul gets back at me for slacking off these last few months! I start training with Paul on Monday. We will train twice a week and I will be doing cardio the other 3 days.
I have spoken with several of the new contestants about their approaching fitness challenge. They are very excited and anxious and terrified too! I am not going to lie, it is indeed a CHALLENGE. But I am thrilled to watch and support them through their journey. And they are motivating me too!
I am going to try to enjoy my weekend and I am going to try not to think about my impending doom(Paul) that awaits me on Monday! Just kidding Paul...(not really)
I have done strictly cardio everyday this week, each day I have increased my time and intensity. I am pretty sore, but nothing compared to how I will feel next week when Paul gets back at me for slacking off these last few months! I start training with Paul on Monday. We will train twice a week and I will be doing cardio the other 3 days.
I have spoken with several of the new contestants about their approaching fitness challenge. They are very excited and anxious and terrified too! I am not going to lie, it is indeed a CHALLENGE. But I am thrilled to watch and support them through their journey. And they are motivating me too!
I am going to try to enjoy my weekend and I am going to try not to think about my impending doom(Paul) that awaits me on Monday! Just kidding Paul...(not really)
Monday, February 1, 2010
Day One...2010...
I met all 6 of the new contestants for the Marethouse Fitness Challenge on Saturday and what a WONDERFUL group of people they have this year. They all have different stories and challenges and I am thrilled to death for them as they begin this awesome journey.
I am officially back on track as well. I have even started my food journal again. And I am going to the gym straight from work today! A little nervous, it has been a while...but I have to get back in a routine of regular exercising. It not only makes me feel better, look better, and function better....but I owe it to Marethouse and myself to continue this journey and lose my last 30-40 pounds.
I am so excited to see what this year brings! I am going to sign up for more training twice a week. I need the push!
My goal is to workout everyday the new contestants do...and to make as much progress as I did last year, or more.
Last year at this time I needed to lose 75 pounds, which seemed so far and unattainable. This year I need to lose 35 pounds....sounds much better!!!
I am officially back on track as well. I have even started my food journal again. And I am going to the gym straight from work today! A little nervous, it has been a while...but I have to get back in a routine of regular exercising. It not only makes me feel better, look better, and function better....but I owe it to Marethouse and myself to continue this journey and lose my last 30-40 pounds.
I am so excited to see what this year brings! I am going to sign up for more training twice a week. I need the push!
My goal is to workout everyday the new contestants do...and to make as much progress as I did last year, or more.
Last year at this time I needed to lose 75 pounds, which seemed so far and unattainable. This year I need to lose 35 pounds....sounds much better!!!
Friday, January 29, 2010
A New Year, New Contestants, New Goals...
OK, so it has been a while. But I have decided that since the 2nd annual Marethouse Fitness Challenge is right around the corner, that I would set new goals for myself too. Tomorrow I am attending the orientation for the new six, extremely lucky contestants of the next Fitness Challenge. I am going to help them create and manage their blogs during the challenge. I am very excited to help in any way I can. And I am also thrilled to meet, support, and watch their life changing journey begin.
Blogging definitely played an important role in my success. It is not only a wonderful outlet to document, vent, and journal your emotions...but it is also EXCELLENT for accountability too. Believe me, the contestants will be held accountable, especially this year, having to meet and train 5 days a week. But blogging their journey will give their family and friends and opportunity to learn firsthand what they are feeling, what they are going through, and just how hard this whole process is! My husband learned a lot...sometimes more than he wanted to know...from my blogs! My blog definitely took off and it became more popular than I ever thought it would be. If I skipped a day, I would catch grief from co-workers, family members, and friends!
I am also grateful to be involved in the new challenge, so that I can become accountable again too. I still have a ways to go to meet my goal weight, and I need the extra motivation too. I have decided to use this new challenge with the new contestants as a new goal for myself. Utilizing my membership that I won last year, and the knowledge that I have learned, I feel like my goals are very reachable! I received notice this morning that my high school reunion is JUNE 4th....holy crap.I have four more months...EXCELLENT MOTIVATION.
So the bottom line is: It is a new year, new contestants, and I have set new goals too. I look forward to meeting them and blogging this new journey with them.
Blogging definitely played an important role in my success. It is not only a wonderful outlet to document, vent, and journal your emotions...but it is also EXCELLENT for accountability too. Believe me, the contestants will be held accountable, especially this year, having to meet and train 5 days a week. But blogging their journey will give their family and friends and opportunity to learn firsthand what they are feeling, what they are going through, and just how hard this whole process is! My husband learned a lot...sometimes more than he wanted to know...from my blogs! My blog definitely took off and it became more popular than I ever thought it would be. If I skipped a day, I would catch grief from co-workers, family members, and friends!
I am also grateful to be involved in the new challenge, so that I can become accountable again too. I still have a ways to go to meet my goal weight, and I need the extra motivation too. I have decided to use this new challenge with the new contestants as a new goal for myself. Utilizing my membership that I won last year, and the knowledge that I have learned, I feel like my goals are very reachable! I received notice this morning that my high school reunion is JUNE 4th....holy crap.I have four more months...EXCELLENT MOTIVATION.
So the bottom line is: It is a new year, new contestants, and I have set new goals too. I look forward to meeting them and blogging this new journey with them.
Friday, October 30, 2009
Happy and Hurting!
SO, I had my first workout in a while with Paul! And it feels.....PAINFUL! I was SO nervous when I walked back into the gym yesterday evening to train. I was literally shaking. I don't know why, just intimidated again. But once Paul and I got started, it was a happy, familiar feeling. I felt like I had accomplished something difficult. And Paul was very encouraging and made it doable. I was cussing his name this morning when I got out of bed though. I am SORE! Although it makes me feel like I worked hard.
I am so happy and appreciative to be back in the gym, even if it does hurt!
I will be taking new measurements on Tuesday, and also taking my blood pressure, to make sure that I am still running good numbers.
Marethouse Mama is BACK!
I am so happy and appreciative to be back in the gym, even if it does hurt!
I will be taking new measurements on Tuesday, and also taking my blood pressure, to make sure that I am still running good numbers.
Marethouse Mama is BACK!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Finishing what I started...
It has been a while, in fact it has been months. I am sure that by now I have lost my blog audience completely! But initially I started the blog for myself and to keep me on track and it spiraled into something I did not expect. The blog helped me journal my thoughts and feelings during this journey....and I am not finished! This time last year I was 40 pounds heavier....and I intend to lose the last 40-50 and reach my goal. The last couple of months I have struggled, like so many of us in real life...something happens to set us back and then we never pick ourselves up and end up right back in the position (weight) we started at...if not weighing more. I have seen this cycle before. I have traveled this road and I have decided I have worked too hard and come too far to let this pattern reoccur. If I write about it, admit to it out loud, it helps me feel accountable to get back on the wagon, keep going, and finish what I started.
A few months ago, as I have talked about previously, my boss lost his fight with cancer. It affected me more than I could ever imagine. Being at his bedside the last weeks of his life and watching him literally die...was something I have never faced in my life. He was one of the most caring, kind-hearted, and brilliant people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. And I do feel blessed to be one of the lucky ones that got to know and be touched by him. But after his passing, I sort of shut down...I slowly stopped working out as much...and slowly started to slip back into a disease I have fought most of my life, depression. Returning to work came with many more obstacles that ultimately lead me out of the gym. After not exercising for a few weeks, I found myself climbing deeper into my familiar past. Thankfully my husband stood by me, he supported me, and told me I needed to find a new job. He told me that I deserved to be happy again...
SO- after a long two months, I have accepted another position within the Health Science Center! And it is wonderful so far. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, it is exactly what I needed. Now....next step: START EXERCISING AGAIN!
Ryan and I both decided to get back into our healthy routines, we both agreed that is when we were the happiest. I went to the gym last week for the first time in a while. And I was extremely nervous to get back on that dreaded scale. But to my surprise, I had not gained any weight. I had not lost any weight either. Thanks to the Fitness Challenge, I have not completely gone back to my old ways, and even though I have not been exercising regularly, I have been able to maintain healthy eating habits for the most part.
So, I am happy again, motivated to finish this journey...
More to come from Marethouse Mama!!!
A few months ago, as I have talked about previously, my boss lost his fight with cancer. It affected me more than I could ever imagine. Being at his bedside the last weeks of his life and watching him literally die...was something I have never faced in my life. He was one of the most caring, kind-hearted, and brilliant people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. And I do feel blessed to be one of the lucky ones that got to know and be touched by him. But after his passing, I sort of shut down...I slowly stopped working out as much...and slowly started to slip back into a disease I have fought most of my life, depression. Returning to work came with many more obstacles that ultimately lead me out of the gym. After not exercising for a few weeks, I found myself climbing deeper into my familiar past. Thankfully my husband stood by me, he supported me, and told me I needed to find a new job. He told me that I deserved to be happy again...
SO- after a long two months, I have accepted another position within the Health Science Center! And it is wonderful so far. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, it is exactly what I needed. Now....next step: START EXERCISING AGAIN!
Ryan and I both decided to get back into our healthy routines, we both agreed that is when we were the happiest. I went to the gym last week for the first time in a while. And I was extremely nervous to get back on that dreaded scale. But to my surprise, I had not gained any weight. I had not lost any weight either. Thanks to the Fitness Challenge, I have not completely gone back to my old ways, and even though I have not been exercising regularly, I have been able to maintain healthy eating habits for the most part.
So, I am happy again, motivated to finish this journey...
More to come from Marethouse Mama!!!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
My Progress and Michael Jackson
I have been doing better, getting back into the routine of exercising at least 4-5 times/week. I was slacking for a while, only making it to the gym twice a week. It is so hard to get motivated again and back into the swing of things once you are out of your routine. But my journey is not over...and will never be...
Things I have really enjoyed this summer (compared to last summer):
- shopping for new clothes, smaller sizes!
- taking Charlie to the pool (wearing a swimsuit in public!)
- wearing sleeveless shirts
- attending events and ENJOYING them...not worrying about what I looked like the whole time
- seeing people I haven't seen in a while...and their reactions
I still have about 30 more pounds I would like to lose, but from where I started...that is a small feat! I go back to see my doctor next week and I am looking forward to seeing how much I have lost since my last appointment with him.
OK- on to more important news: Last weekend we welcomed a new addition to our family!
Introducing.....
Michael Jackson Farrell (MJ)
MJ has been a great addition to our family. He is incredibly sweet and very tolerant of Charlie. He has not hissed once! And as soon as you touch him, he is purring. Very sweet kitty. Charlie wakes up each morning asking for him, and goes to bed each night talking about him. I know the new will wear off soon, but he is really enjoying his new kitty!
His name: Those of you who know me, know that I have been ...well...a little obsessed with all of the Michael Jackson hoopla. I have watched every 20/20, Primetime, Dateline, 48 Hours, YOU NAME IT....I could write a book on Michael Jackson! When I saw our little kitty for the first time...he was black AND white...and it came to me instantly....MJ!
Things I have really enjoyed this summer (compared to last summer):
- shopping for new clothes, smaller sizes!
- taking Charlie to the pool (wearing a swimsuit in public!)
- wearing sleeveless shirts
- attending events and ENJOYING them...not worrying about what I looked like the whole time
- seeing people I haven't seen in a while...and their reactions
I still have about 30 more pounds I would like to lose, but from where I started...that is a small feat! I go back to see my doctor next week and I am looking forward to seeing how much I have lost since my last appointment with him.
OK- on to more important news: Last weekend we welcomed a new addition to our family!
Introducing.....
Michael Jackson Farrell (MJ)
MJ has been a great addition to our family. He is incredibly sweet and very tolerant of Charlie. He has not hissed once! And as soon as you touch him, he is purring. Very sweet kitty. Charlie wakes up each morning asking for him, and goes to bed each night talking about him. I know the new will wear off soon, but he is really enjoying his new kitty!
His name: Those of you who know me, know that I have been ...well...a little obsessed with all of the Michael Jackson hoopla. I have watched every 20/20, Primetime, Dateline, 48 Hours, YOU NAME IT....I could write a book on Michael Jackson! When I saw our little kitty for the first time...he was black AND white...and it came to me instantly....MJ!
Monday, July 20, 2009
Rough Patch
I don't even know where to begin! I know I have not posted in a month. My plan is to get back on track. The past month has been filled with all sorts of emotions. I lost my dear boss to his fight with cancer on July 1st. It has been harder than I ever imagined.
I have continued to work out as much as I could this past month, but I have not been consistent or on the pace that I need to be. Surprisingly, I have not gained weight...however I have not lost much either.
I have 12 sessions left with Paul and I need to make the most of it. I need to work as hard as I possibly can. Lately that has been difficult for me. I have had a hard time concentrating. There has been a lot going on, and its clear Paul has been disappointed in me. Our relationship has suffered due to my lack of effort lately. It has been weird because I have felt lots of anxiety everyday about working out. I guess all I can do is work hard and try my best. But with everything I went through this past month, the last thing I needed was to be given a hard time about my workout schedule, I was doing the best I possibly could. And to my defense, I think a lot of people might have just given up, gone back to old ways of NO exercise and bad eating habits...I think all things considered....I haven't done so bad. Don't get me wrong, Paul was very understanding through the hospitalization and death of my boss, I just don't think he realized how hard it has been for me to bounce back and get over it. I don't blame Paul for giving me a hard time, I know that he means well, and I guess I am just sensitive...especially lately. I don't handle criticism very well, I need positive motivation. Being given a hard time might motivate some people, but it makes me want to quit. And lately that is how I have felt.
With that being said I also need to say I know Paul has had a lot to deal with lately too...and my issues are the least of his worries! I just want to continue to make the Marethouse team proud and to continue on my journey to getting healthy.
I do owe all of my success to Paul, he has helped me achieve and reach goals I never thought possible. I would have NEVER made it to this point without him. And his friendship has meant the world to me. I don't want to let him down or disappoint him or myself. I thank God everyday for Marethouse Fitness. What a blessing!
Yesterday I sat down and decided I need to get out of this funk!!! I planned out my schedule for the week (meals, workouts, etc..). I went to the grocery store and loaded up on all my healthy food for the week. It actually feels like I am getting a grasp on things again. I am getting my life organized....and back on track!!!! I have a ways to go to reach my weight loss goals, and the key for me is to follow a routine. This past month I have been off my routine, and because of that I have felt every part of my life spinning out of control. It's not fair to Paul, David, my family...or ME. I want to continue to inspire others on their journey, I want to continue to make my family proud. And most of all I want to live up to my name...MARETHOUSE MAMA!!!
Thank you for all of your prayers and support through this difficult month.
A few HAPPY memories that I need to post:
July4th!!
Ryan's 30th birthday!
I have continued to work out as much as I could this past month, but I have not been consistent or on the pace that I need to be. Surprisingly, I have not gained weight...however I have not lost much either.
I have 12 sessions left with Paul and I need to make the most of it. I need to work as hard as I possibly can. Lately that has been difficult for me. I have had a hard time concentrating. There has been a lot going on, and its clear Paul has been disappointed in me. Our relationship has suffered due to my lack of effort lately. It has been weird because I have felt lots of anxiety everyday about working out. I guess all I can do is work hard and try my best. But with everything I went through this past month, the last thing I needed was to be given a hard time about my workout schedule, I was doing the best I possibly could. And to my defense, I think a lot of people might have just given up, gone back to old ways of NO exercise and bad eating habits...I think all things considered....I haven't done so bad. Don't get me wrong, Paul was very understanding through the hospitalization and death of my boss, I just don't think he realized how hard it has been for me to bounce back and get over it. I don't blame Paul for giving me a hard time, I know that he means well, and I guess I am just sensitive...especially lately. I don't handle criticism very well, I need positive motivation. Being given a hard time might motivate some people, but it makes me want to quit. And lately that is how I have felt.
With that being said I also need to say I know Paul has had a lot to deal with lately too...and my issues are the least of his worries! I just want to continue to make the Marethouse team proud and to continue on my journey to getting healthy.
I do owe all of my success to Paul, he has helped me achieve and reach goals I never thought possible. I would have NEVER made it to this point without him. And his friendship has meant the world to me. I don't want to let him down or disappoint him or myself. I thank God everyday for Marethouse Fitness. What a blessing!
Yesterday I sat down and decided I need to get out of this funk!!! I planned out my schedule for the week (meals, workouts, etc..). I went to the grocery store and loaded up on all my healthy food for the week. It actually feels like I am getting a grasp on things again. I am getting my life organized....and back on track!!!! I have a ways to go to reach my weight loss goals, and the key for me is to follow a routine. This past month I have been off my routine, and because of that I have felt every part of my life spinning out of control. It's not fair to Paul, David, my family...or ME. I want to continue to inspire others on their journey, I want to continue to make my family proud. And most of all I want to live up to my name...MARETHOUSE MAMA!!!
Thank you for all of your prayers and support through this difficult month.
A few HAPPY memories that I need to post:
Charlie's FIRST trip to the beach: he LOVED it!!!
July4th!!
Charlie and Daddy reading the newspaper together
Cousins trip to see New Kids on the Block for my birthday!
Ryan's 30th birthday!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Outside and Uncoordinated
Yesterday...outside Wednesday...100 degrees (ok, 99)....I SURVIVED!!!
Paul was actually nice and only made me do three sets of exercises instead of the usual four sets we normally do outside. I was still dying...but there was a nice (warm) breeze the whole time, don't get me wrong, it was still very hot, but bearable! I think he was hot too. :)
He still made the usual positive comments about how uncoordinated I am, and how he has never seen anything like it before. He told me that he has never had anyone who CAN NOT do an exercise in a straight line...EVER. It is just my thing, I don't try to veer off...I just do!
It's ok, if Paul was not giving me a hard time, it just wouldn't be the same!
Dave told me yesterday that he is going to make a page on the website completely dedicated to MARETHOUSE MAMA!!! He is going to post info and pictures on my progress. That is nerve wracking and exciting at the same time. It definitely gives me motivation to reach my goals, people are watching!!!
Thank you so much for the continued support, this journey is not over and will never be. The positive comments and huge support system I have really keeps me going.
Paul was actually nice and only made me do three sets of exercises instead of the usual four sets we normally do outside. I was still dying...but there was a nice (warm) breeze the whole time, don't get me wrong, it was still very hot, but bearable! I think he was hot too. :)
He still made the usual positive comments about how uncoordinated I am, and how he has never seen anything like it before. He told me that he has never had anyone who CAN NOT do an exercise in a straight line...EVER. It is just my thing, I don't try to veer off...I just do!
It's ok, if Paul was not giving me a hard time, it just wouldn't be the same!
Dave told me yesterday that he is going to make a page on the website completely dedicated to MARETHOUSE MAMA!!! He is going to post info and pictures on my progress. That is nerve wracking and exciting at the same time. It definitely gives me motivation to reach my goals, people are watching!!!
Thank you so much for the continued support, this journey is not over and will never be. The positive comments and huge support system I have really keeps me going.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Soakin up the sun in Sargent!!!!
Hawaii???.....nope Sargent Sunset!This weekend was a blast! We have decided to make it an annual "cousins" event! My cousin, Amy, thinks that we should plan it somewhere a little less "outdoorsy"...with better accommodations next year, i.e. Vegas! Sargent's accommodations are a little rough!
In addition to all of the fun, and NO KIDS...the weekend took on a much deeper meaning to me. It was the first time since I can remember that I actually enjoyed myself, and felt comfortable. I wasn't worried constantly about how tight my clothes were, or worried about everyone talking behind my back at how much weight I had put on. It was actually quite the opposite!!!
I wore my new bathing suit (which was a little too big!) most of the weekend, and didn't feel uncomfortable...or like I was wearing a tent. ALL weekend I got compliments on how great I looked, and how hard I have worked, and it was the best feeling in the world. A couple of my cousins were even asking me advice on keeping the motivation, exercise, and eating...unbelievable. Never in a million years did I think anyone would ask me for exercise advice! Paul might agree that it is still too early for that! Ha! But, it was a wonderful feeling, and it only made me more motivated to keep going!
I have lost 41 pounds since January, I still have 35-40 more I want to lose. I can do it!!!
Pray for me today: It is outside day, and I don't know if anyone has checked the weather channel, but it is supposed to be TRIPLE digits. I am going to die!!! Probably a good thing I enjoyed myself this weekend, it might have been my last!
Below are a few pics from the weekend:
My brother, Chad, and me
Ryan and I at the fancy restaurant!
Cap'n Chad
My cousin Kelly and me on the boatWednesday, June 10, 2009
Trucking along...
This week has been good so far! Paul and I had a great workout on Monday....no throwing up. So that was good news. I am working very hard on not throwing up ALL week, it will be a record. I am a little nervous though, because today is outside day...and its 96 degrees! I can do it. I hope I can do it.
I am very excited about this weekend. We are headed down to Sargent, TX for our 1st annual Cousins Weekend! If you know my family...it should be a good time! There will be around 15 of us going....with NO kids! The grandparents have all volunteered! I am looking forward to actually wearing a bathing suit this year, not a tent.
For those who are not familiar with Sargent---
It is a SMALL, Po-dunk town off Matagorda Bay with a population of about 500. Our family owns a bay house on Caney Creek, and we have made many great memories there growing up! Sargent is known for man-eating mosquitoes, gorgeous brown water, and most of the permanent residents don't own a bra. BUT...it is fun!!!
PICTURES TO FOLLOW!!!
I am very excited about this weekend. We are headed down to Sargent, TX for our 1st annual Cousins Weekend! If you know my family...it should be a good time! There will be around 15 of us going....with NO kids! The grandparents have all volunteered! I am looking forward to actually wearing a bathing suit this year, not a tent.
For those who are not familiar with Sargent---
It is a SMALL, Po-dunk town off Matagorda Bay with a population of about 500. Our family owns a bay house on Caney Creek, and we have made many great memories there growing up! Sargent is known for man-eating mosquitoes, gorgeous brown water, and most of the permanent residents don't own a bra. BUT...it is fun!!!
PICTURES TO FOLLOW!!!
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Its been a while....
I have to apologize for the lack of blogging. Work has seriously been super ridiculously crazy. AND...I am having trouble thinking of something creative to write about!
But I am getting complaints again from my loyal readers so here ya go: A re-cap of this week!!!
Monday Paul killed me in the gym, I seriously felt like I had never worked out before. It was ridiculous! I struggled through the entire workout...
Paul asked what the deal was? I don't know, maybe I was just tired. I'm not sure!
Tuesday I met Britta at the park at 5:30am for some cardio. It was good. It actually feels SO good in the mornings before the sun comes up.
Yesterday I stayed home from work with Charlie. He was sick, poor baby. We snuggled and cuddled, but by the end of the day I was actually looking forward to getting to the gym for my workout! There is only so much Dora, Diego, Wonder Pets you can take before you feel like you might need someone to talk you off the ledge...
Wednesdays as you know are outside days, which I was a little nervous about considering that it has been SOOOO hot here the last week or two. I was already sweating just getting out of my car which is not a good sign! But something miraculous happened at 5 o clock yesterday, the clouds covered the sun and there was a nice breeze the whole hour we were outside!!! God was looking out for me. I also had a workout partner join me yesterday, which was fun. Karen, the operations manager at the gym, and a very good friend of Paul's decided to join us. Let me just start by saying her entire body is about the size of ONE of my thighs...so I was a little hestitant about running next to her! As everyone knows...I run like a duck. But having her out there was very encouraging and helped me push myself harder so that I didnt look dumb. And by the end of the workout, Karen was gasping for air as much as I was, so that made me feel better too!
AND...Paul told Karen she runs like a gazelle! Random, but funny! And it was nice for him to pick on someone else for a change!!!
Below are few cute pics from the last week of Charlie!!!
Fun in the sprinkler
The house got quiet...I went looking for Charlie and this is what I found. He said...he was stuck!
Driving his big red car
Playing at the park
Feeding the ducks...
Charlie and Poppa hanging out
Charlie on the tractor at Poppa's house
This sweet little guy lives in our backyard, we see him all the time, and daily Charlie screams out the back door "Where are you baby bunny?"
But I am getting complaints again from my loyal readers so here ya go: A re-cap of this week!!!
Monday Paul killed me in the gym, I seriously felt like I had never worked out before. It was ridiculous! I struggled through the entire workout...
Paul asked what the deal was? I don't know, maybe I was just tired. I'm not sure!
Tuesday I met Britta at the park at 5:30am for some cardio. It was good. It actually feels SO good in the mornings before the sun comes up.
Yesterday I stayed home from work with Charlie. He was sick, poor baby. We snuggled and cuddled, but by the end of the day I was actually looking forward to getting to the gym for my workout! There is only so much Dora, Diego, Wonder Pets you can take before you feel like you might need someone to talk you off the ledge...
Wednesdays as you know are outside days, which I was a little nervous about considering that it has been SOOOO hot here the last week or two. I was already sweating just getting out of my car which is not a good sign! But something miraculous happened at 5 o clock yesterday, the clouds covered the sun and there was a nice breeze the whole hour we were outside!!! God was looking out for me. I also had a workout partner join me yesterday, which was fun. Karen, the operations manager at the gym, and a very good friend of Paul's decided to join us. Let me just start by saying her entire body is about the size of ONE of my thighs...so I was a little hestitant about running next to her! As everyone knows...I run like a duck. But having her out there was very encouraging and helped me push myself harder so that I didnt look dumb. And by the end of the workout, Karen was gasping for air as much as I was, so that made me feel better too!
AND...Paul told Karen she runs like a gazelle! Random, but funny! And it was nice for him to pick on someone else for a change!!!
Below are few cute pics from the last week of Charlie!!!
Fun in the sprinkler
The house got quiet...I went looking for Charlie and this is what I found. He said...he was stuck!
Driving his big red car
Playing at the park
Feeding the ducks...
Charlie and Poppa hanging out
Charlie on the tractor at Poppa's house
This sweet little guy lives in our backyard, we see him all the time, and daily Charlie screams out the back door "Where are you baby bunny?"Friday, May 29, 2009
CONGRATS KAT!
Congratulations to my little sister, Katy!!!!
She made Senior Lieutenant Officer, for her dance team next year! This is a big honor and we are all very proud of her.
She made Senior Lieutenant Officer, for her dance team next year! This is a big honor and we are all very proud of her.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Positive Thoughts...
I am feeling MUCH better today. I had a great workout with Paul yesterday afternoon and although, I did throw up outside, I felt like we had a productive workout. It was very hot and I think that might have had something to do with it.
I was able to get in another GREAT workout this morning (5:30am) at a park right by my house. I walked a mile, did sets of lunges, squats, high knee skips, and other fun exercises! It was a nice morning and it was a beautiful sunrise.
Positive thoughts:
- I have a great husband and happy, healthy little boy
- I have lost 38 pounds since Jan. 1
- I wore a skirt to my nieces dance recital on Saturday that I haven't fit into since my honeymoon
- I have an AWESOME trainer who will never know how grateful I am
- I have a wonderful support system (MOM!, Family, friends, etc..)
Looking forward to another great workout tomorrow morning and afternoon. I have started back on a great exercise routine this week. I have lost weight, and I feel more organized. I know I can reach my goals by the end of summer!!!
I was able to get in another GREAT workout this morning (5:30am) at a park right by my house. I walked a mile, did sets of lunges, squats, high knee skips, and other fun exercises! It was a nice morning and it was a beautiful sunrise.
Positive thoughts:
- I have a great husband and happy, healthy little boy
- I have lost 38 pounds since Jan. 1
- I wore a skirt to my nieces dance recital on Saturday that I haven't fit into since my honeymoon
- I have an AWESOME trainer who will never know how grateful I am
- I have a wonderful support system (MOM!, Family, friends, etc..)
Looking forward to another great workout tomorrow morning and afternoon. I have started back on a great exercise routine this week. I have lost weight, and I feel more organized. I know I can reach my goals by the end of summer!!!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
The Climb
I am really, really not trying to be negative...I enjoy writing about positive things and staying upbeat....but I am not feeling super upbeat at the moment.
Yesterday Paul and I worked out, and I felt like we had a great workout, although I threw up at the end.....again. For some reason I am STILL throwing up usually about once a week after a hard gym workout. And I think it is not only frustrating me, its frustrating Paul too. He doesn't understand why I am STILL throwing up after 15 weeks of training. He thinks it's psychological, which is possible, I guess....but made me mad. I don't want to throw up, I don't enjoy it, in fact it I hate it. I just feel like I am letting him down. I need to be getting stronger, lasting longer, doing MORE....not throwing up. Ugh.
I'm just having an overall bad few days. Work has been crazy busy (hince the not blogging!) And I am feeling a bit down. I need to snap out of it. Ryan seems to have a lot going on, golfing, fishing, etc...and maybe I am just feeling over worked and jealous!
I know people are probably reading this and saying...waaawaaa, get over it! Sorry for being so negative and whiny. I promise I will be happier tomorrow :)
I heard this song on my way to work this morning and it made me cry...don't know why I am being so dumb today! But I think it is an awesome song, even if it is by Hannah Montana! (Confession: I did see the movie and loved it!)
"The Climb" (by Miley Cyrus)
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith
Yesterday Paul and I worked out, and I felt like we had a great workout, although I threw up at the end.....again. For some reason I am STILL throwing up usually about once a week after a hard gym workout. And I think it is not only frustrating me, its frustrating Paul too. He doesn't understand why I am STILL throwing up after 15 weeks of training. He thinks it's psychological, which is possible, I guess....but made me mad. I don't want to throw up, I don't enjoy it, in fact it I hate it. I just feel like I am letting him down. I need to be getting stronger, lasting longer, doing MORE....not throwing up. Ugh.
I'm just having an overall bad few days. Work has been crazy busy (hince the not blogging!) And I am feeling a bit down. I need to snap out of it. Ryan seems to have a lot going on, golfing, fishing, etc...and maybe I am just feeling over worked and jealous!
I know people are probably reading this and saying...waaawaaa, get over it! Sorry for being so negative and whiny. I promise I will be happier tomorrow :)
I heard this song on my way to work this morning and it made me cry...don't know why I am being so dumb today! But I think it is an awesome song, even if it is by Hannah Montana! (Confession: I did see the movie and loved it!)
"The Climb" (by Miley Cyrus)
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith
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